June 24, 2002 ~ Unplugged
Sometimes you have to take a break even from the things you love. Took a break from my computer this weekend. I just really needed it.
I needed to sit and read for hours. I needed to take a clothes-hunting trip to the Goodwill to stalk a few presentable work clothes for my new job. I needed to practice driving. I needed to visit with friends. I needed to relax before my first day. I needed to sit in the backyard and watch birds and wild rabbits and friendly neighbor dogs chasing the wild rabbits. I needed to drink fruit smoothies, eat raspberries and strawberries, and celebrate the solstice. I needed to attend a friend's show at a coffee shop (where she did beautifully! She's a singer/song writer, and she plays the acoustic guitar). I needed to talk to my mother on the phone. I needed to tease my husband. I needed to eat a few good dinners and see a good movie.
You get the picture. There were several things that I needed to do. I'm sorry if I caused any concern. I meant to send at least a notify out, but the computer was off, and I never got around to starting it.
I don't know what it has been, recently, that has been causing me to slack off on this so much. I'm sorry. I know it won't last. I love writing here.
But! But I started my new job today. And it is wonderful. It was weird, though, going through all of the new employee paperwork for the college this morning. I've just... well, never felt secure before. Always felt like I was flying through this social system that we have by the seat of my pants. That position gave me the right to criticize the system. And now it feels like I've been accepted by this system. Not sure how I feel about that. I do know that, no matter what, I'll keep on criticizing it.
I think I have insurance for just about everything now, starting today. Full health and dental insurance. Life insurance. If I die, Morgan will get $30,000. (A pleasant thought. Though if he dies, I'll get nothing. That's an even more pleasant thought...) A retirement plan. Long-term disability insurance. None of these things have I ever dreamed of having. And now that I have them, I don't think that it will be terribly easy to give them up. It was Hell trying to get by without health insurance, at the very least.
Transition. Maybe that's why I've not been writing so much. Things are changing pretty fast. If I owe you an email, worry not. It is coming soon.
Note: Oh, almost forgot. Li found her car a day later a few blocks away from where she parked it, minus a bit of cash, a few CDs, and a half a tank of gas. Also, she found it at the end of the day parked on College Street, where you cannot park unpaid for a half an hour without getting a ticket. It didn't have a ticket, so it couldn't have been there for long. No sign of forced entry or hotwiring. Weird, no?