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December 8, 2002 ~ Time to Create
Sunday.
It is so strange, this business of not being a student. My life is no longer strictly divided into semesters, terms, and class schedules. It was very strange to see everyone else go back into classes this fall and simply watch them go, not preparing for classes myself. It has been strange to have no homework, no papers, no projects, or all-nighters to pull. The students, they are all facing final exams right now and I have nothing pressing. Morgan, Li and I will forget; we will invite a friend who is still a student over to dinner and "No, I can't, I'm studying for finals" will catch us by surprise.
I miss the academic work, the challenge, but I certainly do not miss the stress. I am in awe right now at the prospect of actually enjoying the holidays. Remember how terrible I felt last Christmas because I didn't have time to make gifts? This weekend was spent in a flurry of blissful gift making. And this week will be too. And next weekend. And on until Christmas. I have time! Wow! And I love making and giving gifts.
This weekend I mixed and I molded. I plan still to bake, to sew, to write, and to do some calligraphy. I feel wonderful, for, as I work, I think about the relatives these gifts will be going to, how much I love them, how much they have supported me. I pour a lot of love into my work, and I love the creativity and art that I get to put into it.
It feels wonderful to make things with my hands again. I didn't do much of that during college.
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